Standing In Place

It’s been some time since I’ve written… much has changed and yet some things have remained the same…

Am I the only one that feels life is often two steps forward and then two steps back, so that you end up in the same spot? But the cool thing is … I don’t feel like I’m in a rut… I’ve accepted that it will take a little bit more time as I await a few dreams to come true…

Kind of cool that my perspective is positive and no longer dependent upon what’s going on around me. I’d consider that growth and worthy of kudos; YAY me!

Update on me –

  • still working on my splits (the left is darn near touching the ground – the right one though is still in progress. Whew!)
  • still saving money and I’m happy to report I’ve made significant progress – I am more than halfway to my set goal!
  • still not married to my “one” but I have made peace with that. I trust that when the timing is right, it will be right.

And then there was some new –

  • went snowboarding for the first time in January… lot’s of fun but good grief also lots of work!
  • scheduled to go paragliding at the end of this month
  • buying a house this summer

So although there hasn’t been too many drastic changes in life – I’m feeling pretty good about me and where I am… I guess you can say I’ve found my sweet spot! Life is good and I’m grateful for that! But should I start to get a bit too comfortable and forget to keep chasing my dreams… this image reminds me stay focused and driven:

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Until next time!

Life According to Me,

Dr. Donna

 

2017… what a year…

I began the year sick and I’m finishing the year… you guessed it – sick… SMH! Sounds like not much has changed – and yet so much has DRASTICALLY changed!

During these last 12 months I have grown in many immeasurable ways, but I will try to quantify them here:

  • I am able to do a left split
  • I climbed Stone Mountain in 24minutes & felt strong
  • Although I’ve been a dancer my whole life, this was the year I danced with full abandon & a smile
  • I returned to work full time for the school system, so that I’ll have predictable income to reach my savings goal!
  • There was local and domestic travel (fun times)
  • I reconciled and strengthened several family bonds
  • There was a slew of dance rehearsals for my various dance performances
  • I began building my own comunidad (community) and it feels awesome to have the support (no longer wandering alone (except when I choose to))
  • And there was a TON of concerts, broadway shows, and movies. Just a few of my favorites were: Movies– Wonder Woman, Leap, The Star, / Broadway– Annie, Finding Neverland, / Concerts– For King & Country, Anthony David, & Fantasia

Through it all… what I take away from this year is a newfound and hard-earned love and appreciation of who I am. I walk with an air of confidence in my capabilities and my purpose. However, thanks to all of the struggles, that confidence doesn’t spill over into the realm of arrogance. I will never forget the struggles for they keep me humble…

There’s something to be said for the season when I women truly comes to understand her value and her worth. The essence of Maya Angelou’s Phenomenal Woman poem captures what I’m referring to – this place of knowing who you are so intimately that it radiates for others to see… I am in that season…

Gone are the days of running from anxiety and hiding in the shadows of depression. Goodbye to the periods of self-doubt and self-deprecation. And no longer am I unclear about who I am and where I am going.

These are exciting times!

So as we all ready ourselves, to sing the well-known Auld Lang Syne, I smile at the bittersweetness of this time. For although there were tough roads and tears shed in 2017, it was intermingled with pops of sheer & utter JOY! And so I shall miss 2017! Those moments of sunshine & mountaintops, as wells as those dark, gloomy valley days… for they have propelled me into knowing who I truly am.

A new year awaits me… and you… I eagerly step through the door and into the new experiences that shall come with 2018. Per my usual, I don’t set resolutions, but I do have clear and high expectations for 2018. I’m excited to see the germination of seeds planted oh so long ago!

I’m proud of this new me – the one who is no longer waiting to live life. The one who appreciates and is grateful for this life she’s living, right now, in this moment! No longer waiting for a husband or a baby to define me – trusting that I AM ENOUGH… and when the husband and baby do come (for come they shall), they will come to complement this wonderful (though far from perfect) life I’m living.

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Until Next Time,

Dr. Donna

Finding Me…

I was looking through my website and came across these random, (not) posted thoughts:

my similarities to the sun

  • sometimes overshadowed by clouds
  • occasionally eclipsed by the moon
  • but always living to rise to a new dawn

I started this list – Three years ago… wow… that would have been 2014.

Some things are the same about me and my every day existence – yet I feel different! Probably because the lens that I view life through, has changed.

Even though on the outside everything looks status quo, I can feel what would be missed by the naked eye and random observer.

No longer do I feel like I’m wandering aimless and purposeless.

No longer do I feel in the shadows, eclipsed, or overlooked.

I have found my voice. I have found my stride. And I’m excited for what the future holds!

It is a new dawn indeed! But this reality is better than I ever could have imagined! Because before I was waiting to acquire things or a certain status to feel peaceful, happy, and whole. But lo and behold, I have arrived to my happy place – and it didn’t happen because of a material possession, relationship status, or career promotion.

It’s comforting to know that this secure place is nestled inside of me – forever mine!

MLK Jr. Had A Dream… So Do I…

I started my ascent at 3:40 pm. As I climbed I listened to Multiplied by the contemporary Christian group – Need to Breathe. How poignant of a group name because that’s how I felt on the way up… breath 1, breath 2, breath 3… whew!  

And I went all the way up – to the tippy top. When I Googled I found out, it was 1 mile up (1,600 feet of climbing). Along the hike, I stopped twice for a minute break of water & breathing… but then I was back at it! I arrived to the top at 4:04 pm. 

Before heading back down, I took a few minutes to just revel in the beauty of the mountainside – to reflect on the symbolism of my trek. This was another vision that I saw and manifested!

I also took a moment to pay homage to a man who once spoke about experiencing freedom on the red hills of Georgia. So I decided to listen to a contemporary mix of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.’s I Have A Dream Speech. The song is called One Day by Vandaag! I think my ancestors smile down every time I conquer a new challenge or break a new threshold… So there I sat, on a rock, sweat pouring down, as I smiled and reflected… 

In this moment-in-time, in this season of life, I feel fully capable of bringing each and every dream of mine to fruition. I am full of life and full of love. Feels good to have arrived here. To this place. To my mountaintop.

And each new accomplishment reminds me of the next mountain top I have my sights set upon. Motherhood… I am getting so close to her (my daughter) that I can hear her, see her, and even smell her. She is my next big vision! I shall Birth her and become a biological mother! Wow! I get chills every time I think about it 🙂

The road to this place of fulfillment has been long and tiresome! But I am stronger, I am better, and I am living this life of mine to the fullest. 

And guess what – it’s not over yet! I’m ready for more!!!

But before I could tackle anything new – I had to get off that mountain! And it was so much quicker on the way down. I smiled and even had a pep in my step as I headed to my car – a nice long shower was on my mind!

I have a dream…

Slow and Steady revisited…

Sometimes it pays to look backwards…

In 2015, I wrote a blog post about the need to be “persistently consistent”! I recall that year… I was in the midst of wanting to see certain dreams come true, not realizing that there were different blessings awaiting me. My dream then was to get my memoir published – that dream didn’t manifest in 2015. Bummer… but what did happen was that I published my first children’s book, I booked several speaking engagements, was invited for a few radio interviews, and decided to take a GIGANTIC leap of faith – I made the choice to remain celibate until marriage. Whew! What a year!!

In the midst of the myriad of changes, I placed my memoir dreams on the back burner, and focused my attention on other passions such as public speaking, and Dance!

Fast forward to present day… the timing still doesn’t feel right to turn back to my memoir writing, so for now it shall remain on the shelf – as I tackle new projects such as making progress on two other book ideas and advancing my dance technique… and of course continuing to save to reach my goal of $25,000 in the bank. As a brief aside – I made my first step of progress towards my savings goal. $1000 has been saved this month.

So… it seems I’ve been taking my own advice… I am “putting one foot in front of the other” and trudging along… slowly making progress. The eternal dream chaser, I won’t quit until I manifest every single dream I’ve ever desired – even the memoir. One day it shall see the light of day. Until then, in my immediate future I see splits, pirouettes, leaps, writing, and saving – saving – saving… ahead of me.

Life According to Me,

Dr. Donna

Here’s the 2015 post that I mentioned above:  Slow & Steady – 2015 Post

 

Which one is it? Problem, Challenge, OR Opportunity?

I woke up early this morning ready to begin my day. I stood in the mirror going through my typical routine. During this time, I usually allow my mind to wander as it may. On this day, various thoughts ran through my mind. I thought about my soon to be published children’s book, I thought about the bloated look I want to get rid of around my torso, and I even thought about the fact that I was feeling quite happy this morning. I paused to ponder that last thought a bit more. I was HAPPY… not sure why, but I was… It wasn’t because my problems miraculously disappeared and it definitely wasn’t because I somehow found a way to put aside all rumination about my difficulties.

I was happy because it that particular moment all was well. And as long as I didn’t veer into the past or too far into the future, I could feel happy.

Isn’t it funny how HAPPINESS can be achieved by staying in the PRESENT MOMENT? I once heard a speaker say: “your mind is your most powerful tool.” He also noted that the MIND is so powerful that in the bible it is stated that we worship the Lord with our mind.

And the bible isn’t the only source that discusses the mind’s strength; take a look at a few famous quotes:

  • Not he is great who can alter matter, but he who can alter my state of mind” – Ralph Waldo Emerson, Poet
  • How different our lives are when we really know what is deeply important to us, and keeping that picture in mind, we manage ourselves each day to be and to do what really matters most” – Stephen Covey, Author
  • The secret of living a life of excellence is merely a matter of thinking thoughts of excellence. Really, it’s a matter of programming our minds with the kind of information that will set us free” Charles Swindoll, Writer

So if the mind is so powerful, why aren’t we all using our minds to its fullest potential? I believe the answer to that question points to the two infamous culprits – Fear & Doubt…

Fear will cause you to be frozen, immobilized from taking any necessary steps forward

And Doubt will cause you to question yourself so that even when you take a necessary step forward you stop in your tracks or even turn back to retreat to the familiar.

However, success, in any endeavor and towards any goal will require you to use the strength and power of your own mind to overcome fear and conquer doubt!

I leave you with these lyrics from the song Hold On by James Fortune & FIYA. I hope it encourages you on your journey –

Know that flowers bloom when rain falls

You just hold on

The tears may come, but stand to the end

Remember you CAN succeed in spite of the fear and despite the doubts!

Life According to Me,

Dr. Donna

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