Most of us look forward to the spring season because it’s a time of renewal, new growth, and FLOWERS! However, spring is also the time of rain showers and the dreaded pollen that blankets the southeast!
For the past few days I’ve been struggling with these awful headaches, which I’m thinking, are pollen induced. So I was semi glad to see the rain that came this weekend because it would clear the air and wash the pollen away… So there I was laying around on one of those damp, overcast Saturday mornings feeling somewhat restless and out of sorts. I was reflecting on life and wondering when the metaphorical rain would come to wash away my struggles, disappointments, and the depression that often blankets my happiness.
I’m tired of waiting, tired of striving, tired of feeling I’m not there yet…
I needed something to motivate me, something to encourage me to keep going – so I turned to music…
And there were two songs that seemed to champion my cause of pushing towards the finish line… Here are a few of the lyrics –
Doubt by Mary J Blige:
I’ll keep getting up
Cause that’s what I’m gonna do
I’m gonna be the best me
Sorry if it kills you
I am a conqueror by Estelle:
Got a vision that no one else sees,
Lot of dirty work, roll up your sleeves,
Remember there’s a war out there,
So come prepared to fight!
You never know wherever the road leads you,
Not everyone’s gonna believe you,
Even though they’re wrong, don’t prove them right
After hearing those two songs, I felt encouraged to keep forging ahead, even though my tomorrow is still a day away. My hope was returning… And just like that the depressed feelings receded away and I was left feeling recharged, refocused, and ready to tackle the day! My spirit felt so renewed that I found myself dancing around to ‘Just watch’ by Mark Ronson. As I grooved to the beat, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror thought you doubt the future that is coming, and as that thought floated through my mind, I could hear Mark Ronson croon: “don’t believe me just watch”! The timing of that brought a smile to my face.
So what’s the moral of the story? Anticipation can be hard sometimes. But I do believe that in the end, the fruit from my waiting and working will be worth it!
Life According to Me,